I love the music by Scott Mescudi, known by his stage name Kid Cudi. I love how he is so raw and real in his tracks. He does not produce music to appeal to a demographic or to get radio plays, he produces music that bleeds his emotions.
That being said, earlier this evening, Cudi’s management posted a letter he wrote onto his facebook page. It read:
Its been difficult for me to find the words to what Im about to share with you because I feel ashamed. Ashamed to be a leader and hero to so many while admitting I’ve been living a lie. It took me a while to get to this place of commitment, but it is something I have to do for myself, my family, my best friend/daughter and all of you, my fans.
Yesterday I checked myself into rehab for depression and suicidal urges.
I am not at peace. I haven’t been since you’ve known me. If I didn’t come here, I wouldve done something to myself. I simply am a damaged human swimming in a pool of emotions everyday of my life. Theres a ragin violent storm inside of my heart at all times. Idk what peace feels like. Idk how to relax. My anxiety and depression have ruled my life for as long as I can remember and I never leave the house because of it. I cant make new friends because of it. I dont trust anyone because of it and Im tired of being held back in my life. I deserve to have peace. I deserve to be happy and smiling. Why not me? I guess I give so much of myself to others I forgot that I need to show myself some love too. I think I never really knew how. Im scared, im sad, I feel like I let a lot of people down and again, Im sorry. Its time I fix me. Im nervous but ima get through this.
I wont be around to promote much, but the good folks at Republic and my manager Dennis will inform you about upcoming releases. The music videos, album release date etc. The album is still on the way. Promise. I wanted to square away all the business before I got here so I could focus on my recovery.If all goes well ill be out in time for Complexcon and ill be lookin forward to seeing you all there for high fives and hugs.
Love and light to everyone who has love for me and I am sorry if I let anyone down. I really am sorry. Ill be back, stronger, better. Reborn. I feel like shit, I feel so ashamed. Im sorry.
I love you,
Scott Mescudi
Why do I love this? I love this because artists are the closest to what I consider a person to be a role model. It is difficult for many, even today, to admit they have self-destructive thoughts or the likewise.
As someone who has sought help and has followed the musical career of Kid Cudi, I commend Kid Cudi for taking this personal time. Personally, I am not concerned about the music that he has had slated to be released. I am concerned that one of my favorite hip-hop artists is healthy and happy with where his life is.
Please take note in this. If you have any concerns about your health, your thoughts, or your physical well being; seek help. No one is going to look down at you. They will support you and help you grow. Just as the music community stands behind Kid Cudi, your loved ones will stand behind you.